She said to me, condescendingly
Take a seat, take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well, I never lived the dream
Of the prom kings and the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve...
John Mayer introduces his album, Room For Squares, with the song No Such Thing which starts out with the above mentioned lyrics. Often we like to think we have things secretly tucked up our sleeves. As men we want to fill the classic type - tall, dark, handsome, and mysterious. I didn't get any of that. I am not tall, just average (5'10"). I'm not dark, my skin is as pale as the teeth of a toothpaste model. I even got unlucky with the whole handsome bit. So the only one left up to me is mystery. But, no, iI missed that one too. In fact my friends laugh at me and call me very predictable. It's one of those jokes that I laugh off along with them but one which secretly hurts me a little. I want to be mysterious. True, I do want to offer the world a sense of allurement, but more than that I want mystery for my own privacy. Yet, that's not the case. I can't keep my secrets up my sleeve. Quite the opposite in fact. It seems that I wear my heart on my sleeve. The good thing is there is One who does know all. And I like that. I do want Him to know all. I just don't want everyone else to know. I like it that He knows. If it's my sins then I know that He identifies with them. If it's my weaknesses then I know He can work through them. If it's my virtues I know He can steer them. But all in all I like the fact that He knows because He cares so much that even though He knows He still loves me. If other people knew all about me they would do nothing but judge me. They would hate me. They would be afraid of me. They would be disgusted with me. But not so with Him. With Him it's different. He cares. He loves me still.
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