God as a Voyeur

Laura Pausini is one of my favourite Italian singer/songwriters. Her songs often have an intriguing, almost haunting, essence to them. One of the songs which has held my attention for some time is the song En Un Cuarto Casi Rosa (In An Almost Pink Room). The song haunts me because it is so beautiful. It also intrigues me because it is so confusing. It is one of those songs I just can't seem to fully grasp. The very beginning of the song, the introduction, is a soft, repetitive, and (to be repetitive myself) haunting tune before going into what is most haunting - the lyrics. The lyrics say, "Mira, estamos solos en este cuarto, pero alguien nos espia sin embargo." The translation of that would be, "Look, we are alone in this room, but nevertheless someone spies on us."

Those lines are beyond haunting, they are downright creepy. It is almost as if they were talking of a voyeur or "Peeping Tom." Usually the term voyeur takes on a rather negative connotation. In my mind it is, unfortunately, most often associated with another Italian - Tinto Brass. That is a very negative connotation. But now I have another connotation to add to that one. It is not a negative connotation, at least not in the same sense as the Brass films. I mean, it's still is kind of negative, but not negative as in dirty or sinful. Rather it is negative in a purely selfish way. It is negative only for us because of what this voyeurism implies to our pseudo sense of dignity. This second class of voyeurism is a divine voyeurism. It is that which is found, for example, in II Chronicles 16:9 "For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth..."

The Bible is replete with verses that tell of the Lord's eyes seeing all. It is, I suppose, only natural. He is, after all, omniscient. He knows everything. He sees everything. The Bible say's He sees even our breath and our thoughts. Now, I don't know about you but that is downright scary. I mean I like it, but at the same time I don't. I like the fact that He has so much power and that He can see me when I need help or comfort. I mean, it's great. God looks down at me and if I'm in trouble He packages up my own little gaurdian angel to come help me. That's great. But at the same time it's not so great if I want to do something I shouldn't. He sees that. No sweat though. That can be easily remedied. I can stop doing bad things. I can stop committing actual sins. The problem with this solution is that it doesn't solve anything. I can still think, and if I can think I can definitely keep on sinning. In fact it's easiest to sin in my mind. Usually it is the most rewarding too. But God does not give us protective little bubbles of privacy. He likes to prick those bubbles and see them go POP! He likes to come up close. He likes to be right up in your face - all the time. And He's not sneaky about it either. He tells you right from the start that He see's it all. My dignity is destroyed. My privacy invaded. My bubble pricked. All this because I have things I want to hide. When will I learn that there is nothing I can hide from Him?