That was a friend's Facebook status this morning. It was also exactly what I needed. Last night my fiance an I went shopping for Mother's Day presents. My card was rejected 3 times at Bath and Body Works. When I went to a nearby ATM it said I had some 250 dollars in my account but then when I tried to draw 20 it said I was overdrawing. Apparently my balance was a negative 250 dollars. Not cool.
My last paycheck (which I hadn't cashed) was for approximately 250 dollars. It was a smaller paycheck than usual because of a few days I had to miss due to school or missions activities. That paycheck was going to be my means of survival for the upcoming couple of weeks. The upcoming weeks are filled with craziness. Utter insanity. After my graduation on Friday I am completely destitute. I have a week of unconfirmed May school and then a summer full of insecurities. Not only do I not have a secure place to live, I don't have a job either. That paycheck was going to be my lifeline. Now it has to go to paying off a huge bank mistake.
After fuming (and terrifying my fiance) we went for a walk in the park. She let me vent. She also shut me up. I was acting like a jerk. I was full of fear and anger. I felt like kicking myself. I felt like crying. She was such an encouragement. She let me vent. She rebuked me. She prayed for me. She encouraged me. She held me. She loved me.
With someone like her in my life I know God will care for me. I know that He will care for us. My soul has faith in Him, and faith is my soul's courage as I pursue the invisible - both now in the summer and after, once we are married.
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